I JUST WANT TO THANK YOU LORD

I just want to thank you Lord for all you have done for me. Your saving grace that has kept me all of these years. Thank for delivering me from the hands of my enemies. Thank you for protecting my family. Thank you for delivering me from mental illness, sex addiction and alcohol.

When I look back on my life I realize, how many times you truly tried to warn me: over and over again to come out from among my family and friends; in order for me to be delivered from practicing sin.

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Now, that I can clearly see the reasons for you allowing me experience the childhood and adult trauma from the males in my life whom I trusted… My Lord help me through this message. Lord I just want to thank you because I have been able to help so many women and men. The tears won’t stop flowing because I cannot stop thinking about how good you have been to me and my family. Through it all you have been a good good father. Jesus!!

People will never understand the reasons I praise you the way that I do. It’s just something about every time I think about the Goodness of God I’ve got to tell others. You have taught me that sharing my testimony not only helps others, but it also helps me become stronger. As I am encouraging others, I am encouraging myself. Now, I truly understand why the Bible tells us to testify. Testifying truly gives us power over then enemy! My God from Zion. The enemy tries his best to bring up our past in a negative way and accuses us of not being truly delivered or being changed, transformed by the renewing of our minds. (NO MORE STINKING THINKING!) The true mind of Christ, not a counterfeit personality.

We all know that the enemy (the devil/satan) is a counterfeit. The enemy literally copies the things of God by twisting the Word of God to trick the People of God in the House of God. My God help us all discern your voice. Help your people to search the scriptures for themselves because many of them only know what they have heard preached in a Sunday Morning or Wednesday Evening Church Service and never take out the time to open up a Bible. They don’t carry a physical Bible, notebook or pen with them to church or have one beside their bed. THE BIBLE TELLS US, “MY PEOPLE ARE DESTROYED FROM A LACK OF KNOWLEDGE.”

I just want to thank you because my childhood trauma, caused me to have adult mental illness because a man I trusted triggered……. Jesus help me. Being date raped by my boyfriend/baby daddy triggered when I was had been raped and molested as a child. The saddest part is that this same man beat me in the head while I was pregnant with our child. This same man physically, mentally, verbally and sexually abused me over and over until I decided to fight him back with all the strength I had within me. The physical abuse was hidden because he would hit me in my head with boxing gloves and in my stomach while I was pregnant putting me in the hospital. Told my mother who was alive at the time that he would kill me a drive me around in the trunk of my own car. Which, actually caused me to be afraid of him and I had never feared anyone on this earth in my life. However, one day we were riding around at night. All of a sudden I no longer saw any streetlights. All I could literally see was the sky shining from the moonlight , the tree tops and a few headlights from other cars driving in the opposite direction. So, naturally I asked, ” Where are we going?” and he replied, “I am about to take you far out, beat you to death and leave your body where no one can find you.” And at that very moment I unbuckled my seatbelt, turned around so I could be upright on my knees in the passenger seat. I grabbed the steering wheel and laid all of my body weight on the steering wheel for us to hit the median. While I was on my knees leaning on the steering wheel I said, ” We are gonna die together tonight!” Mind you I had three small children at home but I was tired of living in fear. At that moment he began to fear me. He screamed, “Let go of the steering wheel!” I replied, “No, you have threatened my life for the last time!” Now, we are both tugging on the steering wheel. He repeated, ” Let go of the steering wheel we are about to crash!” I replied, ” I will as long as you get off on the next exit and take me home to my kids!” Then he responded, “I will, I promise!” I replied, “You better not be lying!” Then I let go of the steering wheel and by the grace of God the few cars I did see where no longer there. He got off on the next exit and never threatened to harm me physically again in his life. However, the verbal and mental abuse started. I had no idea how much damage that man did to me until another man verbally or mentally tries to abuse me. It’s a red flag and I drop the man instantly.

Ladies and gentlemen, do not allow anyone who is supposed to love and care for you, physically, mentally, verbally, emotionally or sexually abuse you. Know your worth and do not settle. When you see these red flags run like your life depends on it because it does. People only do what you allow them to do and love to do it by placing fear in heart. Do not fear no man. Fear the Lord because He is the Alpha and the Omega. The beginning and the end. Jesus Christ is the author and the finisher of our faith. Do not settle because you are a certain age. You peace is more important than anything no matter how old you are. Understand that you cannot get peace from a man or women sexually. You cannot get peace from drinking alcohol or doing drugs no matter what society and the culture has lied and told you. When you drink you have no control and will literally have sex with any one, depending on your preference. You will sleep with people you wouldn’t look at twice while you are sober. When you are intoxicated you speech and thinking is also toxic. That unclean spirit is in full operation. That’s the same thing when it come to the drugs you take. Intoxicated=toxic.

I truly pray that this small part of my testimony has helped someone. Understand, I will never fear a man again my life. I fear God Almighty only. He has proven to me that He is the one who decides who lives or dies, not man. He’s a loving merciful God but he is also a consuming fire. Remember your words have power. When you are intoxicated you are speaking toxic unclean words(.) While you are sober you can control your words and choose to speak love, life, respect, honor, joy and gratitude.

THIS IS THE DAY THAT THE LORD HAS MADE, LET US REJOICE AN BE GLAD IN IT.