Lord I need you
While Iโm encouraging others I need encouragement from you. I need strength. This year is hard for me. Now I understand why you have me sitting. I have been moving and not dealing with my emotions about my mother and Sidney. I was trying to stay moving no stop. Working overtime and staying active in church not to deal with them departing from this earth. Truth is I never wanted to feel this pain. It hurts Lord! It hurts! It hurts! Thank you for the grace. Your grace is truly sufficient. Sharing my testimony helps. However, I truly have to deal with truth. My son Sidney was murdered and my mother was hopeless in pain and ready to die. I was angry at my mom for leaving us and giving up. But, now I realize I had no idea how much pain she was truly in. Reading her journal I found out she couldnโt accept Sidney had died. Lord help me.
Rosina Akinola
Published by Rosina Akinola
Supernatural Woman, Rosina Akinola is the founder of Save Our Families Incorporated non-profit organization for families who have lost loved ones due to violence. We are taking back our joy, by the Blood of Jesus. My oldest son Sidney Maurice Jackson Jr. was robbed and murdered on November 21, 2015. He was 19 years old, 6 months away for getting his Associates Degree in Business Management. He was also a new father, who was gunned down one day before his son Jaiden turned one month old November 22, 2015. Sidney was taken from us two days before my 37th birthday November 23rd. Sidney made one bad choice, which, cost him his life. I didnโt find out until he was dead and gone. And by that time it was too late and I didnโt want to hear it. Knoxville, Tennessee is a small city that is dying slowly. This city has lost so many young men and women due to senseless violence. There are so many families hurting as a whole. No one ever realizes that the mothers arenโt the only ones hurting. The Fathers, siblings, cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents and friends hurt as well. But, everyone grieves differently, because of their own personal relationship with the deceased loved one. But, most of all our youth hurt the most. They do not know how to handle grief at all. Weโve got to be more careful, when it comes to them. They will become severely depressed right in front of your eyes without you knowing it. How can I say this? Well, itโs because it happened to me. I was so wrapped up in the loss of Sidney, two months to the date January 21, 2016 I almost lost my only daughter to suicide. I had to learn the hard way. Iโm trying to prevent other families, from experiencing the same things my family has experienced. I want to be the voice for the mothers who are hurting too badly to SPEAK UP and SPEAK OUT. Iโm trying to help families stay together and support each other. So, many families fall apart after the loss of a family member, especially a child. The Lord is my strengthโฆ
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